| wanted to post ytd but while updating... encounter some problems that made me did something i've never done b4... i went to bath and burst into tears.... cried to the extent that i squat there leaning my head to my arm and keep crying enjoying the water pour on me like rain~ i always wanted to cry in rain was inside for 20mins lol normally i bath 5mins looks like i spent 15mins crying huh now i understand how it feels when a person cry coz of stress and/or emotional jus can't take it the way they see me as still treat me like pri sch kid? thinking im SUCH A SIMPLE PERSON? FUCK YOU ALL KNOW MERELY 10% OF ME AS A FAMILY! i never blame any1 for not understand me but don talk like u all understand i never tell u all any of my problems coz i've lost my trust in all of u during pri sch 'u are fustrated coz ur playing com' 'u are that kind of person who don say sry 1' 'u always talk rudely' WTF ARE ALL THESE? there won't be any problem if they jus don bother about me i doesn't need them to show their love or care jus leave me alone and i leave them alone no more fights its alr 1burden off from me if im this independant i know they are keep getting hurt coz of my sis so jus concentrate on her! she would say 'u all never care about me' i won't.... b4 i enter e1, sis kept discouraging my from doing so nvm i understand that from her opinion when i entered, 'y never tell me u enter e1' wow? expect me to tell her that when she keep discouraging me from it? i get good result trying to enter e1 all these are for my sake that time and wat? jus 1 thing i did for myself im being blamed for parents bias to me, don give money to for her studies frens saying me traitor i understand BUT EVEN THEY HAV TO AGAINST ME? WHY IS GOD DOING THIS TO ME? IM JUS FUCKING TRYING TO PULL MYSELF UP IS THAT WRONG? I'VE BEEN GOING THROUGH COUNTLESS PROBLEMS SINCE SEC3 I'VE BEEN TRYING TO HELP EVERY1 I CAN! WAT DID I GET? ONLY 1 GOOD STUFF: ENTERED E1 WTF ARE THESE? THE MOST UNFAIR I THINK IS I CAN'T EVEN HAV A PERSON WHO WILL PUT IN EFFORT TO UNDERSTAND ME LIKE IN THE PAST WE MET? EVER SINCE SHE NO LONGER LOVE ANY1, WE KEPT HAVING FIGHT SHE CHANGED! NOT EVEN HERSELF KNOWING IT! fuck this world.. |